During the COVID panic the luxury of having things delivered, rather than walking through a store on our feet, became a real industry. Want to eat, not to cook? Call Doordash and order a restaurant meal...
That kind of service is not available at the Cat Sanctuary. Even the US Postal Service is afraid to drive up our private road. I like this.
But there are times when some sort of neighborhood-only variation, with snowmobiles or pickup trucks, might be convenient.
I ate the last human-food meal in the house on Saturday. On Sunday, I thought, I would walk to a grocery store and buy more human food.
Well, Pastel didn't eat her breakfast on Saturday; when I came out with dinner she was waiting on the porch, but then she went down to the sand pit and then, so far as I could tell, she disappeared. Serena and I thought we might have heard a mouse, or maybe it was only a cricket. Serena came inside the office room but wasn't able to determine whether either of those animals was in the office. Giving up, she came to sit on my lap. She coughed and sneezed a few times. Her nose felt warmer than it should have felt. She slept a few feet away from the hot-air fan, showed no interest in going out for breakfast, and continued sleeping in front of the hot-air fan well into the afternoon.
Meanwhile, when I took the junior cats their breakfast on Sunday, Pastel and Drudge were "loafing" side by side on the porch. Drudge leaped up and ran toward food. Pastel didn't move. I picked her up. Her coat was wet, the tip of her tail was muddy, her muscle tone was poor, her face was tear-stained, her nose was warm, and she was shivering. Her breath wheezed and rattled.
I brought her into the office and parked her near the hot-air fan. Serena didn't even bother acting scornful of anything resembling cuddles; she could tell that this was an emergency, and wrapped herself around Pastel, purring.
I hadn't seen Silver all week. I'd assumed she'd been petnapped, because Trumpkin had cried for her to go back to his home for hours every night when she was at her home.
But Pastel's lack of appetite for breakfast yesterday had not been a whim. She'd eaten something--maybe just something that had frozen to death a week or two ago, something that her nose would normally have told her to leave for a possum or vulture to find. Cats usually digest food in less than 24 hours so, presumably, after going to the sand pit, she'd gone back to finish a meal of something she never should have touched.
Maybe it wasn't just a frozen rabbit that had been slowly thawing for days. I still have a Professional Bad Neighbor, although "Long COVID" took a good deal of the wind out of his sociopathic sails. He still employs a man who is neither completely deaf nor completely mute, but close enough that some people give up trying to talk to him and write him off as a deaf-mute. And in December he told this man how he might just drive past the Cat Sanctuary, throw out a chunk of meat, and not have to worry about my cats eating bait on which he hoped to catch a coyote. My cats had not, in fact, been the ones eating the bait--they'd been here for meals, while their visiting friends had been caught in the trap; but I'm the one he's trying hardest to bully off my own property.
Well, a sane person might have observed that the confidence with which cats circulate around the neighborhood, the fact that the coyote trap had repeatedly caught Serena's preferred kitten-daddy who lives a quarter of a mile away, are pretty good indicators that there are no coyotes in the neighborhood--though they've infested some parts of the county, so one might conceivably stray in. However, although I don't think he has a treatable mental illness, the Bad Neighbor certainly is not sane; he's at least a sociopath, if not a psychopath. He wanted to do something nasty to an animal. Probably his sudden transition from "one shot, one prize" to "wasted boxes of bullets and bagged nothing" had something to do with it.
I hadn't seen him during the winter but, last week, on the first day when the temperature crawled above the freezing point even in the shade, he'd sent someone (whose name I know in real life) to spray some New Roundup around the road. So we'd all had a chance to find out how we react to this latest form of legal murder by torture. Apparently glufosinate affects my digestive system in a different way than glyphosate, more painful and more likely to shorten my lifespan, but internal bleeding is still involved. Only more blood. And my eyes were inflamed. And I had no energy all week and took lots of naps. New Roundup needs to be bought back by the government and stored for use as a weapon, though its use probably violates the Geneva Convention.
The cats had been reacting all week, which was why I'd thought nothing of Pastel's bleary eyes. Serena and Silver have the Seralini effect. When not exposed to glyphosate they've had beautiful, healthy kittens. Unfortunately they've been exposed to so much of it that most of their kittens died, or were born dead. Pastel does not show this effect. When she's been exposed to glyphosate, which has been most of her young lifetime, her eyes look watery and bloodshot. Apparently New Roundup affected her the same way. But I was surprised when Serena started coughing and sneezing.
So I spent the day observing my remaining cats sleeping off the fever as best they could, and didn't go to the store, and didn't eat.
Serena might have tasted something nasty, or picked up some sort of respiratory virus, but mid-afternoon she woke up with some energy and appetite...and in a mean mood. I've never seen her in such a mood before. She's always been a big tough muscular cat who'd rather romp than snuggle. She's never seemed to want to scratch or bite hard enough to hurt anyone; when told that she's done that, she's seemed subdued and penitent, and she's tried to play more carefully the next time. Cats will be cats, just as gardening and carpentry will be what they are. Unblemished hands are overrated. But honestly, although I warn visitors away from Serena, I don't think she'd ever do anyone any real harm--when she's in her right mind.
Serena was well and truly delirious, and made unsuccessful attempts to attack people and objects, during a previous episode of serious food poisoning. She seemed to see and hear what was going on, if perhaps in that feverish way that makes everything painful, during this episode of whatever it's been. She didn't really attack anyone; she only threatened to. But she was very, very grumpy--not at all like herself. She deliberately misbehaved, climbing on things she'd been told not to touch, where she is normally a perfect guest in the office. She growled whenever I touched her, growled when Pastel moved against her, screamed death threats and obscenities at herself when she scratched her own ear. She's still in a feverish, irritable mood tonight; she's moved away from Pastel and me as if she knows she's not quite in her right mind yet.
No matter how much time I've spent around cats, most of them do seem, even to me, like "dumb animals." Pillow substitutes. Removing their DNA from the gene pool could only be considered an improvement. Serena is different from those cats. She's not human. She will never have much of the human kind of intelligence. She is definitely a person who not only feels, but thinks, in her own alien way. As a substitute for a baby (how ridiculous!) she's even less satisfactory than a normal cat. As a substitute for a human housemate, she's clean and quiet and has a good Green way of exterminating mice. If I can't ask her to read a manuscript, I can trust her judgments and testimonies about what's going on around our home.
There are people, like the neighbor who dumped out the kitten Inky because he was afraid to tell me he'd run over the cat Ivy, who think I'm just unreasonable about the fact that cats are small animals who have short lives. Piffle. I knew Ivy had formed the bad habit of running out in front of vehicles, as if everyone would always be watching for her and as if she could flag anyone down to solicit a snack or a lift. Ivy's demise made me very sad, but if anyone but Ivy was to be blamed, I was the one. And I can understand how a person who didn't know the cat Graybelle might have thought she was a bobcat; most bobcats are yellow but the ones at the local nature park, that year, were gray, and Graybelle looked about the size of a bobcat, and had a "bobbed" tail. But the thought that someone deliberately killed our Founding Queen, Black Magic, still makes me think that eleven months and twenty-nine days in prison wouldn't have been enough. That man had good reasons for moving out of the neighborhood and having people start a rumor that he was dead. I didn't want to murder him; he didn't deserve a quick, merciful end. I wanted, legally and sadistically and satanically, to ruin him. I feel very much the same way about anyone deliberately harming Serena.
Or Silver. The idea of Silver having been petnapped by another cat amuses me, but I don't believe Silver intended to be petnapped. She intended to come and go as she pleased, as Trumpkin does. She probably doesn't know that, although she's unhappy when she gives birth to dead or sickly kittens and loses them, doing that is her best chance of surviving until we get a total glyphosate ban--and a ban on malicious use of "pesticides" to harm others, which would be most effectively prevented by either banning all spray "pesticides" altogether, or at least allowing them to be purchased only by licensed professionals who have paid a minimum of a million dollars for a one-year license. (And let's call the law by my Bad Neighbor's name, and let all the farmers know whom they have to thank, during the lean years of transition to organic farming.) Silver would not have expected humans who obviously fed and petted her, at first, to lock her up and, unless the present administration can be goaded into making the ban effective this summer, doom her to a premature, slow, painful death. Silver has always been a good cat, stayed close to home, and thus known only people who respected her personhood. She had no way of imagining that other people would treat her like the kind of dumb animal she's never been.
Shortly after sundown Pastel screamed aloud and started gagging. Nothing solid came up. I gave her the same dose of powdered charcoal in water that cured Serena's, and before that Heather's, severe but natural food poisoning. Well, it seemed to relieve the pain so she could go back to sleep. She's unlikely to feel much better than that until she's able to get a lot of bad stuff out, and from observing her efforts to walk across the floor I'm not sure that she has the strength to do that. I wouldn't be altogether surprised if she's able to eliminate the toxic material, eat, drink, and recover her strength tomorrow. I wouldn't be altogether surprised if she dies, either. She smells like eleven pounds of streptococci wrapped in fur. Neither Serena nor I have ever had much of a reaction to strep infections but some strains of strep bacteria have killed susceptible individuals.
Including humans.
Including Pastel's great-great-grand-aunt Iris.
When Iris had streptococcal bronchitis she used to wrap her four-pound self right across my neck as I slept, and I woke up and cracked jokes about how if anyone annoyed me I'd breathe on them. They wouldn't like that because strep stinks. (It's the component of the odor that dung and carrion have in common.) Now I'm older and aware that, although strep was just about the only infection that circulated at school that didn't make me sick enough to stay home, it's like COVID--it can kill people who are old or ill or heavily medicated. With hindsight I realize that Iris had an undiagnosed immune deficiency disease. Even after two courses of antibiotics she didn't resume growing, but kept coughing and wheezing and having foul breath. One day, when she hadn't seemed sicker than she'd been for the previous six months, she just lay down and died.
Some chemical poisons, like glyphosate, compromise the immunity of bodies that don't have immune deficiency diseases. Most living bodies are immune carriers of streptococcus bacteria. Pastel smells as if her existing population of semi-friendly bacteria has exploded.
Missing one day's meals won't hurt me and may help me enjoy the sensation of my immune system mopping up the little streppy-bugs. Missing several days' meals is not such a great idea. A few years ago I would have thought, "So what? Just plan the trip to go into Food Lion during that annoying managerette's shift, and breathe on her! What fun!" (Because when the immune system is mopping up an infection that's not serious for the individual, many individuals feel "high," and I'm one.) Now the thought process is more like, "If I go into Food Lion during the day shift I might inadvertently breathe on young A, and he might go home and breathe on his father, who's had open-heart surgery. When people die from strep, like poor little Beth in Little Women, isn't it because the bacteria attack their hearts? Or I might meet young B, who's been so nice to her great-aunt, who's ninety years old..."
I don't want to live in a place where teenyboppers earn extra cash as Doordash drivers. But I would like, very much, for someone to pick up a few provisions for me. Wal-Mart would be the simplest place to pick up ten days' worth of provisions: I can eat store-brand ("Great Value") chili beans, corn, tomatoes, and chicken, in cans, say six cans of each vegetable and two four-packs of chicken, and drink store-brand caffeinated soda pop, say two liters each of GV imitations of Coke, Cherry Coke, Dr Pepper, and Mountain Dew. Monotonous, but we are talking about a quarantine, not a party.
This probably will not happen. I'll probably walk to Food Lion and grab ten days' worth of much less satisfactory provisions there, and breathe on people, and feel guilty, even while knowing that those people will be gossipping about me all day ("She looked terrible and smelled worse. Does that woman own a toothbrush?" I do; at home I use it after every meal. Bacteria infest places where a toothbrush doesn't go.) After all most of us, even if not born with resistance, built up resistance to strep infections as children and think anyone who takes them seriously, as an adult, is a wimp. Most of us need to think longer about this. Most of us are not wimps. Most of us still have some elders who survived COVID and would like to keep them for a few more years, though.
And Serena, not really a very elderly cat at going on eight years old, isn't out of the woods yet; as I was typing this status update she fell off the chair she'd been sleeping on. And then Trumpkin came around, complaining loudly of being lonely at his home...which means Silver may not even have been safely petnapped.
I had not planned to prosecute anybody for trying to "rescue" Silver as a "stray." I'd thought that, if I found her living with a family nearby, I'd make my best pitch for the family to rescue a shelter cat, but I'd agree to give Silver a free choice where she wanted to live. I have very different ideas about Silver's being harmed--other than by "spoiling" her with a soft life and rich diet, before killing her by destroying her natural ability to excrete toxins through unviable births. That's not what I've ever wanted for Silver but at least it's something people do in the belief that it's the right thing, before seeing for themselves that it's not.
The threat having been heard and witnessed, it would be a good idea for the Bad Neighbor to sign over all real estate and all contents thereof to the living members of the families he's harmed in the neighborhood, now, the half nearest my property to me because he's done me the most harm and I've been the one to find him out, the rest to be divided among the others. Then he should leave with the clothes on his back and sign himself into a mental hospital somewhere very far from here. Just walk into a hospital and say "I am a sociopath and need to be locked up. I killed all but one of my close relatives and then, finding my old home place a bit lonely, I deliberately set out to ruin another neighborhood," and if they don't admit him as a patient, keep trying until he comes to a hospital that will. Then he can spend the rest of his life praying that Serena lives another fifteen years without another little cat cough. Every little possum treat that cat ever kicked sand over was worth more than a Bad Neighbor.